I LIED

I Lied

As though by waiting
I could make you come.
Ella by your cinders:
choking on the smoke of dying dreams.

I cannot promise you love...

Fool I was who loved.
Lone stars and fountains.
As though by wishing
I could make you love.

This is not working. Mistakes…

Gods whispering salvation, along
streams of mascara running by.
Still I loved.
Still.
As though by loving
I would make you stay.

We are in this together. You. I.

If by my belief
We could have,
Happily ever after, the story was told.

But like Humpty,
We would have no redemption.

You know I love you…

I clutched.
Lurched; puppet to your strings.
As if your words would
speak your love to life. To me.

Don’t you know I could never hurt you…


I smiled.
I believed.
The raft in the storm, even as
Widely, wildly distorted worries
Turned nomads in the harmattan,
Roaming the scorched land
That is my head.

A Friend…

Secrets, hushed secrets
Hurried along, buried among
Jokes and laughter,
Heaps enough, to cover a daughter.

It’s not worth it. It’s over…

I paused.


I waited.

For when the earth would quake.
I waited.
To crumble.
To hear the shards as they fell.

Still.

I miss you…

I miss you too.
I lied!
I see you. You lied.
I lied. I see you.
Who you were.
That I’d hate you.
You lied. I see you.
Who you are.
The other one.
You lied. I lied.
I miss you!